I don’t know about you, but I struggle with control, which inadvertently leads to fear. Fear is never my intention. Yet, over the years I have learned it’s constantly in the background of my thoughts.
Predictability and consistency were the name of my game. I was constantly anticipating what was going to happen next so I could be prepared. Looking back, I wasted a lot of time and energy. But more than that, I can see a separation between me and God. I was not trusting Him with the big or small things.
I was the driver and wasn’t interested in a co-pilot or even a pilot. I thought as long as I was doing “what’s right” and “what’s good”, me and God were “good”. Never mind the constant stress and anxiety I experienced from doing life “on my own”. Outwardly, life looked good. Inwardly, I was struggling.
As I dove deeper into bible study, I found myself convicted by my lack of faith. My personal relationship with God was strained. I wasn’t trusting God’s plan for my life. Not daily, definitely not monthly, or yearly. I would pray, but I wasn’t taking everything to Him and waiting for a response. I finally came to a season in my life where I gave up.
“It’s not my will Lord, it’s Yours.”
I slowed down. I read my bible more. I prayed deeper prayers and didn’t rush through life. I waited for doors to open or close.
Psalm 118:6 is one of my favorites. I am often heard reciting it to my kids. Whenever I feel fear creep in, I ask myself, “What can man do to me, I have the Lord by my side?”. Here are three solid truths that help me when my thoughts begin to race:
The Lord already knows what’s next for me. It’s not a surprise to Him and He won’t give me more than I can handle. (Proverbs 19:21)
His plans for me are good. (Philippians 1:6)
He loves me and He will never leave my side. (1 John 3:1, Deuteronomy 31:8)
Friends, let God be your refuge and your strength. His plans are always better than the ones we have for ourselves. There is so much peace when we live in His will and not ours.
So much peace.